charliesmum | Whiny post ahead

I am feeling really, really depressed. I just feel like I can't do anything right, at least when it comes to work things, and I'm just so fed up with it. My whole so-called career has been like that, and now every little critcism makes me insanely paranoid. It's a horrible feeling.

I had one of those 'actor's nightmares' last night, when I was supposed to be doing a show and couldn't remember any of my lines, and it just perfectly illustrates how I'm feeling. I feel like an utter failure.

I don't know. I'm just so fed up with feeling like my life is unstable. I don't have money, my house is falling apart, and I just don't see it ever getting any better.

I know I have things to be greatful for, and I am, but I still feel incredibly sad. This just isn't the life I signed up for.

Sigh.