Only in dreams are we free. The rest of the time we need wages

[charliesmum]

I had a dream about Lost again last night. For awhile I was Claire, and had somehow gotten off of the island and was in an oddly deserted city. I, or Claire, was planning on going back to the island for some reason. And the baby's name was Peter.

Then the dream shifted a bit, and I was me, telling the car payment people the reason I hadn't paid my car payment was because I was one of the passengers of flight 815.

It sucks when bill paying enters one's dream because I woke up totally tense and unhappy.

Someone else on my friends list mentioned an 'age goal', meaning they would try to 'make it' to that age without succumbing to depression. Sometimes I think Charlie is the only thing that really ties me down. When I get really depressed, which has been happening quite a lot recently, I think of Charlie, and think how I can't leave him. Helps get me through another day.

Comments

[sierram.livejournal.com]

My son is my reason for getting up in the morning,too.My kids are my greatest achievement of my life...
You replied to a posting I had made over in house_md,about a ring of Hugh Laurie's.I just added a larger shot of it,hope that helps you to figure it out!
I'm adding you to my friends,hope that is ok with you?:)

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

I'm adding you to my friends,hope that is ok with you?:)

Please do! I shall add you back! Anyone who can post so many yummy photos of Hugh Laurie is a friend of mine! *goes off to look at the picture of the ring*

[slammerkinbabe.livejournal.com]

I think we should talk on AIM or via email soon, okay? I'm glad to hear you're hanging in there, but I worry sometimes. ::hug::

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

AIM would be cool. Now that I have the big fancy computer at home I can do it after work hours, too.

[chavvah.livejournal.com]

Charlie is lovely, but you need to be happy just for you, too. If that isn't happening, maybe you should talk to someone--for his sake and yours.

[wolfma.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean. Whenever I get really down, I start wondering what my boys would do without me.

[minelsker.livejournal.com]

I hope you don't mind me commenting but can relate very much to your comment. My childrenhave often been the glue that has held me together while battling depression...and strangely are often the trigger for a slide as well. They certainly are my reason for getting out of bed some days.
Big hugs being sent your way

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

I don't mind you commenting at all.

I thought your comment about the kids sometimes being a trigger is very interesting and very true - as a mother you worry so much about things and sometimes it just seems like everything is conspiring against you. And boy kids know how to push your buttons, don't they?

Thanks for the hugs. Hugs back!

[minelsker.livejournal.com]

Push buttons..oh yes very much. I am a single parent of 3 and often wish i could split myself into 2 or 3 or more. I'm often bottom of the list for attention..although learning to move up the list now...smiles. May I add you as a friend?

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

May I add you as a friend?

Sure! I will friend back, if that's okay.

How old are your kids? My friend is a single mother of 2 kids, and she totally can sympathise with you, I'm sure. Sometimes she calls me just to calm down because they are driving her crazy! But at the same time, you love them SO much...parenting. Quite a roller-coaster ride.

[minelsker.livejournal.com]

My children are son 9 and 2 daughters 5 & 3. I have on my own since july 2004..my decision. Rollercoaster ride..oh definatley...like life! lol

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

Oh, and I just went to your user info and saw you are from New Zealand which is my favorite place I've never been to!

[minelsker.livejournal.com]

New Zealand...very beautiful and well worth a visit. You and I have a certain Hairymonster friend in common...smiles..we both live in the same city...

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

You and I have a certain Hairymonster friend in common

Cool! Now I have two reasons to try to get to New Zealand someday. Three if you count wanting to see the places where they filmed Xena. :)

[anngwish42.livejournal.com]

I sometimes feel the same way about Lysander. I think that he's caused me to "grow up", especially emotionally, in a way that nothing else could have. Now when I get depressed, I have something to help me want to get up and keep trying...