Writer's Block: Everybody hurts

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I had a nervous breakdown. And in my case it wasn't just kids bullying me; although there was this one girl who totally did, but the teacher who bullied me, belittled me, and basically broke what little self-esteem I ever had.

That said, there was this other girl in that class who was kind of cruel to me; not horribly, but typically, if you know what I mean. She and I wound up in a couple of classes together in High School, and we sat next to each other in French class and we became friends.

That to me was the best feeling in the world. Letting go of that anger and pain and befriending someone who once hurt me felt good.


Some of my HS friends think I have rose-coloured glasses when I look back on those years, and I probably do, but compared to grade school and middle-school, High School was paradise for me. I had friends, I had activites, I finally liked who I was. That went a long way in 'getting through' the problems I had as a kid.

I'm complaining about complaining

Yes, I see the irony.

Still...I feel like lately people are complaining all the time about things they should be enjoying; and I am including myself in this.

I'm doing a play in October, and this time around there seems to be more bitching about rehearsals and scheduling and parts and things. I don't know if its because it's our 'new' group, and we're worried about failing or what, but I hardly ever hear people say 'I'm so excited about this! It's going to be fun!' and again, I am including me.

I say to myself, I'm doing this because I want to; it's supposed to be fun. If I don't want to do it, if I'm feeling like it's taking time from things I'd rather be doing, why did I sign up in the first place?'

So I'm resolved to not complain any more. It's supposed to be fun. I need to make it so.

And the other thing I'm sick of people complaining about, and this is less real life than it is 'internet life', is Doctor Who.

My gods, the bitching people in the fandom get up to. It's not supposed to be rocket-science; it's not supposed to be taken seriously at all. It's just supposed to be a romp. A family show. We're supposed to laugh at the jokes, thrill to the adventure, and hide behind the sofa at the aliens. We're not supposed to write a dissertation on the perils of time-travel.

Right. I feel better now.

Off to bed.