I could say I didn't post my previous with any thought toward garnering sympathy, but that wouldn't be true. I needed a bit of sympathy, and I knew my flist, truly made up of some of the nicest people in the world, would offer it to me. So thank you. It really helped.
Basically the company just doesn't have any money, and since my job was one of those 'overhead' type things, they eliminated it. Frankly I didn't always feel like I was earning my salary, but I was hoping that would change. Which, obviously it did, just not in the way that I'd have liked. My boss was sorry, and said I could use him for references, and did say I was doing a good job, so that was good, anyway. Better than 'we don't think you're cut out for this' that I got the last time.
Frankly I really don't know what I am cut out for. I've bounced around from place to place so long it is pathetic. Unfortunately my strengths are not often things people will get paid for, and I tended to take jobs that really weren't me.
One of the upsides is at least this time I don't have to panic about health insurance, since the husband gets it now from his job.
The downside is, this really is a horrible time for this to happen, even apart from the holidays. I'm trying not to panic. It isn't easy, but there you go.
Also, it affects Kate the baby sitter, and I don't think she'll be around when I do get another job, so it's back to square one for that.
All, however, is not bleak. I'd called my husband to tell him, and then called him back again a bit later to talk about the health insurance. When he got the first call, he'd been doing something at someone's house, so that man overheard the conversation. It turns out he used to work for the New York Board of Education and he and a bunch of guys left to start their own business tha has to do with teaching technology to schools, or something. Anyway, he told Kris that they were thinking they might need a part time admin type person to do all the things they don't have time to do, since they travel all over the company, and he thought maybe I'd be interested.
So, when I called back, Kris put the guy on the phone, and we chatted, and the upside is he'd like to meet with me sometime soon, and see if this is 'do-able'. He's not the only decision maker, and I suppose it depends on what kind of money they have to play around with and, like I said, it would be part time but - and this is a good part - I'd work from home.
So we'll see. I'm not getting the hopes up. Usually when something really great comes along it doesn't happen for me. Pessismistic, I know, but true.
Meanwhile, I signed up for unemployment and I have my updated resume, and I did start looking on line until I decided I just can't handle thinking about it right now.
So thanks again for all your kind wishes. I can't express how cared for that made me feel. If I didn't have this community of people whom I genuinely consider friends, I don't know what I'd do.
So thanks.
ETA:
sixth_light, I got your card today in the mail. That was really cheering, too. The photo on the front is pretty. I was reading this book once and didn't realise it took place in NZ (Margaret Mahey) and they were talking about "Summer" and "Christmas" happening at the same time and I was all confused until I figured it out. :)