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On insecurity
Apr. 30th, 2008 08:10 amWhen I was a little girl, I have very little self confidence, and I wanted more than anything to be 'popular'. This pretty much insured I'd be a doormat who let people walk all over me in hopes they would actually like me, and I took it very much to heart when someone didn't like me.
I did, mostly, grow out of that, but there is echoes of that earlier me, and every once in awhile those echoes get louder.
Two of the actors in Taming has a blog on Xanga, and both of them have said how they basically don't like us as a group very much.
Now, I will admit I am an 'insider', part of the 'clique', but my goal for the group is to make every new person an 'insider', and we all try very hard to let the new actors know that once they've auditioned, they are part of the company.
I know I shouldn't, because sometimes there is nothing you can do about how people feel, but I take this very personally, and that little girl inside of me wants to bring lots of gum to try to buy her way into these people's hearts.
Have you ever felt that way? Do you think I ought to work harder to make these people feel more included, or just accept the fact that it is an organic thing, and groups have to gel naturally?
I did, mostly, grow out of that, but there is echoes of that earlier me, and every once in awhile those echoes get louder.
Two of the actors in Taming has a blog on Xanga, and both of them have said how they basically don't like us as a group very much.
Now, I will admit I am an 'insider', part of the 'clique', but my goal for the group is to make every new person an 'insider', and we all try very hard to let the new actors know that once they've auditioned, they are part of the company.
I know I shouldn't, because sometimes there is nothing you can do about how people feel, but I take this very personally, and that little girl inside of me wants to bring lots of gum to try to buy her way into these people's hearts.
Have you ever felt that way? Do you think I ought to work harder to make these people feel more included, or just accept the fact that it is an organic thing, and groups have to gel naturally?
