Sep. 13th, 2011

charliesmum: (Depressing Shot (Doctor H) by prejudices)
I'm not going to go into detail, because it's ridiculous, but one of my fellow cast members accused me of something, and it seems I've been overstepping my bounds, but no one wanted to tell me, so instead they just decide to talk about it behind my back, which I find extremely hurtful.

And it serves me right, because I've done the same thing to other people. I think it's left over from wanting to be part of the 'cool kids'.

The thing I'm accused of I don't think I did very often, but it was enough for certain people to paint me as a 'problem'. Then this one guy decided to be a bitch via email at me, and it just pushed me over the edge.

I'm not sure exactly why it hurts so much, but it does. I can't stop crying right now, which is, as I said, ridiculous, but there you go.

I want to quit the show. I really do. I'm 44 years old. I don't need this kind of nonsense. They don't really need me in Merry Wives, but it would totally mess up the other play; although I'm sure they could work around it with not too much problem.

But I'm not relishing the idea of going back to rehearsal on Wednesday, knowing what I know.

I don't know. What would you do, flist?

ETA: Just for clarification: I was told basically that I was 'side-directing' and interfering with other people's scenes. Which if I did, I don't think I did all the time, and only in scenes I'm involved in. I probably said things when I shouldn't have, but what really hurts is no one said anything to me. They just eyerolled behind my back and labeled me a problem without talking to me and giving me the benefit of understanding I'd crossed a line. And I find out from a pompous, righteous email from a 28 year old.
charliesmum: (Dangermouse Stressed)
Thanks, once again, guys for talking me through my dramalamaness. As always you guys are awesome.

My director talked me down a bit. Said I was doing a great job, and he didn't notice any inappropriate behaviour, so that makes me feel better. And I did send out an email saying I'm sorry if I stepped on toes and next time tell me kthxbye.

In other news, Wil Wheaton posted about making beer and wanting to make that his dream job, or something, and his wife pointed out he should combine it with his dream of owning an 80's arcade. A brew pub with 80's games in it.

I would SO go to that pub.

What do you think?

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