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Jan. 11th, 2010 12:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
charliesmumThere's a bit in one of Terry Pratchett's book, can't recall off hand which one, where he points out that humans have this thing against boredom, - 'oh look today is the same as yesterday, how boring, I wonder what would happen if I hit that head with this rock?'
I bring this up, because I've been feeling kind of lost recently. And been sort of 'feeling my age', which doesn't help.
I mean, I'm quite content with my life as it is right now; no major problems, my bills are paid, my car works, my job seems secure, etc.
Still, I can't help but feel like just a bit stagnated. I'm starting to think, 'is this it? Is this the rest of my life?'
It would be nice if I could be sure that the something new was also something good, though.
We're so weird, us humans. I mean really. Why can't I just be in the moment and be glad of what I have? I'm trying, I really am, but these last few weeks I'm just longing for some indefinable something or other.
One of the things that possibly started it off was I was speaking with a fellow cast-member who wants to direct a play for the CSC in the fall, and he made this comment about how nice it was we have a bunch of 'young actors and actresses' now, and I just felt like that meant I was never going to get cast ever again, because there's these young ingenue types to choose from. I'm not quite ready to be the nurse.
Anyway...I guess I just need some jollying from my flist. What've you got? :)
I bring this up, because I've been feeling kind of lost recently. And been sort of 'feeling my age', which doesn't help.
I mean, I'm quite content with my life as it is right now; no major problems, my bills are paid, my car works, my job seems secure, etc.
Still, I can't help but feel like just a bit stagnated. I'm starting to think, 'is this it? Is this the rest of my life?'
It would be nice if I could be sure that the something new was also something good, though.
We're so weird, us humans. I mean really. Why can't I just be in the moment and be glad of what I have? I'm trying, I really am, but these last few weeks I'm just longing for some indefinable something or other.
One of the things that possibly started it off was I was speaking with a fellow cast-member who wants to direct a play for the CSC in the fall, and he made this comment about how nice it was we have a bunch of 'young actors and actresses' now, and I just felt like that meant I was never going to get cast ever again, because there's these young ingenue types to choose from. I'm not quite ready to be the nurse.
Anyway...I guess I just need some jollying from my flist. What've you got? :)