Thank you everyone

[charliesmum]

Once again I can't fully articulate how much it means to me to have people who rush to comfort me in my times of need. It's almost embarassing, really, as there are others out there with more serious things they are dealing with on a daily basis, but I needed the comfort, and you gave it to me, and for that I thank you.


I think my saddness at this whole affair goes deeper than just not getting the play. I think I'm feeling generally that I've not really done things with my life, and this was just sort of a real reminder of that. I don't know. I'm still processing.

I'm still on the board, and there are other things that will happen, and eventually I'll feel better about everything. For now, I just need to grieve and get it out of my system.

Charlie, naturally, was so sweet. He hugged me while I cried, and said, "Don't worry, Mommy, we can have a play here." and he offered to get me flowers.

He's a good kid.

Comments

[zambonigirl.livejournal.com]

Well, I guess I missed everything, but I'm sorry you didn't get the part. That just sucks. Here's hoping for next time. You're not a failure, I can promise you that. You're a great person.

[lietya.livejournal.com]

Hey, whatever else you've done with your life, you've got a beautiful boy who's sweet and smart and coping alarmingly well with autism. That's a hell of an accomplishment right there.

I've said it to other people, but playing the "I shouldn't be upset because sother people have it worse" game is completely no-win. Someone ALWAYS has it worse. That doesn't mean we aren't entitled to be upset or sad about what matters to *us.*

[cactus-wren.livejournal.com]

Mmm, I know what you mean about feeling that perhaps you have not accomplished much with your life. I sometimes think the same thing. Here I sit with a degree and everything, years of schooling, but I don't work a 'real' job, what have I done? I haven't done anything remarkable. But I have -- I'm a wife and a mother and I have two gorgeous girls who are smart and happy and (fairly, heehee) well adjusted. They are amazing and wonderful, and they are what I've done.

And you have Charlie - and the hubby, lol - and Charlie is an amazing, thoughtful, caring child with a great mom. He is lucky and so are you.
But when he did this :"Don't worry, Mommy, we can have a play here." and he offered to get me flowers., didn't you just know exactly what it is you've done, and how well you've done it, and feel lucky for it? Yes? Then that's what counts.

[enchanting-ella.livejournal.com]

officially gone all mushy and sniffy and have the whole quivering lip going and it isnt me that he said it to or me feeling blue. mmmm may have to borrow him one day.
didn't reply the other day. lots had, but the point is when you feel that way it is hard to believe all the good stuff, you will when you are ready and look in the mirror and at your family and see just what is important and what you have done.
take the little role; if you can..i did once was hurt but did it, the following play i got a better part but still CRAPPY PART but someone saw it and i got offered the lead singer for a jazz band. was even better. see what come of it. but if you do or dont ...have fun life is too short not to try new things and have fun.

[ailurophiledj.livejournal.com]

I'm in the same shoes as you...and I'm 27. You had a much fuller life than I did. You have a husband, a kid, a house, a home and a family and whole lotta friends on LJ. Me? I'm burned out from being a Veterinary Technician for ONLY 4 1/2 years (how do other people DO it?!), and I don't know where I belong. Occasionally, I always felt that I don't aim "high" because of my deafness. I'm not saying that because I'm disabled I can't do anything. I'm basically saying that I feel afraid to "jump in" to anything because of my deafness. I'm afraid of trying out for a play (I LOVE to act!!), I'm afraid of asking for jobs, I'm afraid of quite a few things...because I feel like I can't do it or because I'm deaf. Now that I've had a lot of time on my hands, I'm not as afraid anymore. I'm going back to school to take general fun classes, and maybe get into game development or somewhere along the lines. When would be the next time I'll have THIS much time off with a boyfriend that encourges me to NOT TO WORK?
My life hasn't begun yet...yours is far from being done.
Everytime I "fall", I just pick myself up, and get back on that damn Horse and go for a lesiure ride instead of riding hard to achieve everything.
If I were you, I'll graiciously accept the smaller part. Who knows, you may be an understudy for whatever part you wanted. And perhaps you'll learn a lot more about acting skills if you watch others and see of ways to IMPROVE yourself.

My boyfriend really hates it when I put myself down, we even argue about that. He hates to see people putting themselves down when they know in their hearts that they have full of potiential in whatever they do, whatever they love to do. Everyone has something that they can do better than others. I can tell you right now that you're a much better Mommy than most people that I know. :-) I can tell you right now that you're a much better writer than me...trust me...my words are just jumbles.
Me, I probably can give a screeching cat a bath without batting an eye better than you can....lol!

((((hugs always))) Tomorrow is another day.