Stop the world, I want to get off

[charliesmum]

I am dreading the holidays. I've never done that before. I don't think I am going to be able to see my family until I made the decision THEY want me to make, and I've been so horrible to the husband, we're really strained, so I don't know if I want to deal with his family, and I sure don't want to just be here with husband because, strained.

I'm feeling sort of fed up at work, because I just wish they'd hire me already. I knew when I started it would be 3 month temp to perm, but I didn't think it would be this annoying. Seems stupid to me for them to be paying the agency when they could just pay me. And then I'd get actual money. I'm tempted to say, "Look, can you just tell me if you are going to hire me full time, because if not I should be looking for a job that actually pays me." but if they say no, I'll be sad.

And we're supposed to be starting rehearsals for the next play, and I am also not looking forward to that for various reasons, and that sucks because it is something that I love.

I just want someone else to make decisions for me. How pathetic is that?

Meanwhile, I just changed my layout again, so feel free to look at it. I added a link to the Collingswood Shakespeare website.

And elfmanfan has the coolest mood theme ever and I can't get it to download on my LJ. *pout*

Right. Emo whining over. Have naked child standing next to me. Go get your jammies on, Charlie. (he's laughing at that last sentence)

Comments

[sixth-light.livejournal.com]

I just want someone else to make decisions for me. How pathetic is that?

Not pathetic at all. You're in a shitty situation and there aren't any easy answers: of course you wish someone could magically tell you what to do. You'll work it out, though. It just might take a bit longer.

[halfacricket.livejournal.com]

I just want someone else to make decisions for me.

Oh boy, do I know how you feel. It's so much easier to let someone else make the decision, because then, if I don't like the outcome, I can blame them instead of myself.

I don't have any easy answers, but slammerkinbabe and I are here for you if there's anything we can do to help.

[halfacricket.livejournal.com]

P.S. - I like the new layout. What a pretty color!

[pairika.livejournal.com]

Very sleek and sophisticated! I like! =)

And aww! One of my lines from the play in your profile! ("There's nothing ill can dwell in SUCH a temple!") I also must add that "halfacricket"'s username just makes me think of "Being but half a fish and half a monster!!"

Are you dismayed about the persistent cast issues with WT...?

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

Woo! I'm glad you noticed the line. I like that line, because it works on different levels. I sat there for ages going through lines in my head, trying to figure out what would work.

WT is dismaying me on many levels. It has bad mojo.

I love the fact I can edit comments now.