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[charliesmum]

There's a bit in one of Terry Pratchett's book, can't recall off hand which one, where he points out that humans have this thing against boredom, - 'oh look today is the same as yesterday, how boring, I wonder what would happen if I hit that head with this rock?'

I bring this up, because I've been feeling kind of lost recently. And been sort of 'feeling my age', which doesn't help.

I mean, I'm quite content with my life as it is right now; no major problems, my bills are paid, my car works, my job seems secure, etc.

Still, I can't help but feel like just a bit stagnated. I'm starting to think, 'is this it? Is this the rest of my life?'

It would be nice if I could be sure that the something new was also something good, though.

We're so weird, us humans. I mean really. Why can't I just be in the moment and be glad of what I have? I'm trying, I really am, but these last few weeks I'm just longing for some indefinable something or other.

One of the things that possibly started it off was I was speaking with a fellow cast-member who wants to direct a play for the CSC in the fall, and he made this comment about how nice it was we have a bunch of 'young actors and actresses' now, and I just felt like that meant I was never going to get cast ever again, because there's these young ingenue types to choose from. I'm not quite ready to be the nurse.

Anyway...I guess I just need some jollying from my flist. What've you got? :)

Comments

[pinguthegreek.livejournal.com]

We're not old in spirit, we're just chronologically challenged.

The thing is, we're only ten days into this year and neither of us knows what lies ahead. Something good and different is bound to happen at some point, hopefully soon for both of us.

I am "under house arrest" due to the remainder of the ice not having gone here outside of London. What I just said to you is what I keep trying to tell myself while I'm stuck indoors reliant on my family to take me shopping because I don't have the confidence to drive in this weather. Or the tires.

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

Being stuck inside is no fun.

And yeah - the year is young. Lots of opportunites for good things to happen, right?

[pinguthegreek.livejournal.com]

Yeah, like new New Who ( even thought they're still trying to milk the specials by repeating them Monday through Wednesday and showing EOT as a double bill ).

What else ? For me, I'm booked up every weekend until the end of the month or thereabouts. Ok, mostly with family stuff ( aunt visiting from Portugal including visit by my brother, his wife and my elder niece), big brother's belated fortieth birthday and then, hopefully, going to a Bulgarian Film Festival.

I bet you that you have some plans for this month ?

[femaelstrom27.livejournal.com]

I know this may sound stupid, but those young actors and actresses don't have the experience and dedication to acting that you have. From what I understand, the director at CSC right now isn't your favorite person and is kind of an idiot when it comes to casting, which is unfortunate. But an intelligent director would be foolish not to pick you for a role.

I'd love to see you and Charlie soon! -- I just bought Jelly Babies!

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

The person who made the comment isn't THAT director - he's acted with us in a couple of shows, I quite like him, and I have possibly misinterpreted his meaning, but it still made me feel washed up when he said it.

Nom...jelly babies! I do want to see you soon. Maybe we can meet for dinner or something this week. I'll text you!

[brownkitty.livejournal.com]

http://mylifeisaverage.com/

Well, there's this...

Seriously though, what do you want? Do you know? I ask because right now, I want to go to school. I want it badly. And I have no idea what I want to go to school for. I've spent long enough where what I wanted was at the bottom of the list, so I've sort of trained myself out of wanting specific major things, and I'm wondering whether you've done the same thing.

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

:I've sort of trained myself out of wanting specific major things, and I'm wondering whether you've done the same thing.

That kind of sums it up nicely, I think. Not sure what I want. Sometimes I think maybe I want a boyfriend, but other times I think, ew, no. I've no idea, really. Tragic, isn't it? :)

[brownkitty.livejournal.com]

Tragic, and I suspect common.

[gehayi.livejournal.com]

If you don't want your life, I'll take it. Steady income, bills paid, a car that works (hence regular transportation), nice family, good friends. To me, it sounds idyllic.

(Well, aside from having a kid. I never wanted to be a mother, probably because my mother didn't want to be one.)

Mostly, I just focus on the basics. My dreams of the future are about food on the table and a place to sleep and health insurance. I don't focus on other things I want, because I know I won't get them.

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

If you don't want your life, I'll take it. Steady income, bills paid, a car that works (hence regular transportation), nice family, good friends. To me, it sounds idyllic.

I know. I'm really not unhappy at all. It's just sort of funny how one's brain tends to always want something more. Believe me I am very, very grateful for what I have now.

I hope it gets better for you, too. Do you have heat yet, at least?

[gehayi.livejournal.com]

No. No heat. we're going into the second week of no heat, and no end in sight. Weatherization is waiting for Glastonbury Boiler to send them estimates, and I can't get the boiler people on the phone. And then after THAT we have to wait for the state of Connecticut to get off its fat ass and APPROVE the new furnace, which is probably going to be another two weeks at least. Then we have to get everything coordinated so that the furnace and the furnace people actually show up at the same time.

I figure that there may be heat in the house by Easter. If we're very lucky.

[placeboweek.livejournal.com]

The desire for change can be a powerful motivator. The trick is to harness it for good. :)

Sometimes I feel as you do, especially because I am career-minded but haven't worked towards that goal lately, but then I remind myself that I get to help sea turtles every Monday, when over a year ago I was like, "I hate my job and I love animals but I never get to do anything with them." You should find something that you want to do and find a way to do it. Volunteering is great because then you get to do it for free and get some perks besides. :)

[http://users.livejournal.com/_geekie_/]

I agree with the other posters. It sounds like you need a change of pace! But remember that a change of pace can be something really, really small and doesn't necessarily require that you be social to do it. I'd suggest trying a walk in the evenings just to get more exercise, but I hear that the weather where you are is nearly as bad as it is here, so...bad idea. For now.

Does your local community center have inexpensive evening classes for hobbies and domestic things? I know ours does. Cooking of all types, crafting, writing, some types of exercise, etc etc. Who knows, you might find that you're looking forward to it all week once you get involved. Let us know how it goes!

[crossbow1.livejournal.com]

The weird thing is that the two posts above yours on my flist are by other people you don't even know complaining about feeling lost.

I think it's a January thing.

[charliesmum.livejournal.com]

Maybe we should try Hare Krishna? (Muppet Movie reference)

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[drakonlily.livejournal.com]

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