Playing hookey

Firstly - HAPPY BIRTHDAY katje0711

I called in sick to work today. I'm not feeling 100% perky, so it's not completely dishonest, but overall I just couldn't stand the thought of sitting there today.

Sadly the day is reflecting my mood, ala any good Gothic or Victorian novel, and it is going to rain. Still, I'm home, I'll hopefully get some stuff done around the house, and I can play online without feeling (too) guilty, or worrying that someone will come in at catch me playing Scrabble.

Had a college dream last night. Those are easy to analyze. Want to go back to when I had more things going for me. The dream later turned into a dream about Lost, and Sawyer and I were hiding in a room somewhere, trying to escape from Lostzilla which was, in my dream, a dinasaur. Don't know what that means.

Any road, I'll be posting a lot today, methinks. Hopefully I'll have more interesting things to talk about later in the day.

Playing hookey

Firstly - HAPPY BIRTHDAY katje0711

I called in sick to work today. I'm not feeling 100% perky, so it's not completely dishonest, but overall I just couldn't stand the thought of sitting there today.

Sadly the day is reflecting my mood, ala any good Gothic or Victorian novel, and it is going to rain. Still, I'm home, I'll hopefully get some stuff done around the house, and I can play online without feeling (too) guilty, or worrying that someone will come in at catch me playing Scrabble.

Had a college dream last night. Those are easy to analyze. Want to go back to when I had more things going for me. The dream later turned into a dream about Lost, and Sawyer and I were hiding in a room somewhere, trying to escape from Lostzilla which was, in my dream, a dinasaur. Don't know what that means.

Any road, I'll be posting a lot today, methinks. Hopefully I'll have more interesting things to talk about later in the day.

Pa Ingalls

I just watched Little House on the Prairie. The original one, with Michael Landon. I'm being unbelivably lazy, not following my good intentions one little bit. Anyway...I loved that show when I was growing up. I liked Mary, as she was the oldest of three girls and I was the oldest of three girls. The episode I just watched was Mary-centric, so yay. Michael Landon lived in my town for a while when he was a teenager. There's even a little plaque in the park in his honor.

I'm pretty sure I had a point when I started writing this. Possibly it was something pithy about Little House and simpler times but it's gone now.

Pa Ingalls

I just watched Little House on the Prairie. The original one, with Michael Landon. I'm being unbelivably lazy, not following my good intentions one little bit. Anyway...I loved that show when I was growing up. I liked Mary, as she was the oldest of three girls and I was the oldest of three girls. The episode I just watched was Mary-centric, so yay. Michael Landon lived in my town for a while when he was a teenager. There's even a little plaque in the park in his honor.

I'm pretty sure I had a point when I started writing this. Possibly it was something pithy about Little House and simpler times but it's gone now.

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Probably one of the most annoying things people say when trying to cheer one up is 'things always happen for a reason'. Because, really. How is that helpful? In the long run, yes, it is probably true, but when you're sitting there, sad because your boyfriend dumped you, or you didn't get into the college you wanted to get into or lost a job or whatever, it's not comforting because at that point in time you can't possibly know what that reason is, other than the universe has a twisted sense of humor, or something.

I do believe that things have lessons in them, though. It just sucks that we can't always see that lesson until it is long in the past. Richard Bach, who I've been quoting a lot recently for some reason, once wrote that you are never given a problem without a gift for you in its hands. You have the problem because you need the gift. That occasionally brings comfort to me, even when I couldn't even begin to guess what that gift is. Nonetheless, we all of us have the ability to find that gift - to reach for happiness in the midst of whatever sorrow we find ourselves in. We just have to remind ourselves of that ability once in awhile.

I can't say 'it will get better' because that isn't necessarily true. It will get different. Good things will happen, and even worse things will replace the thing that was previously the worst thing that ever happened. Somewhere in there, though, are the perfect moments. They don't last long, but they are there. The few minutes when you're laughing yourself sick over something a friend said, or you're outside and it's a beautiful day, or you get just for a second, that you're alive, really alive, and that there's always hope. We need to live for the perfect moments. Remembering they are there helps when your in the middle of the not so perfect moments.

(no subject)

Probably one of the most annoying things people say when trying to cheer one up is 'things always happen for a reason'. Because, really. How is that helpful? In the long run, yes, it is probably true, but when you're sitting there, sad because your boyfriend dumped you, or you didn't get into the college you wanted to get into or lost a job or whatever, it's not comforting because at that point in time you can't possibly know what that reason is, other than the universe has a twisted sense of humor, or something.

I do believe that things have lessons in them, though. It just sucks that we can't always see that lesson until it is long in the past. Richard Bach, who I've been quoting a lot recently for some reason, once wrote that you are never given a problem without a gift for you in its hands. You have the problem because you need the gift. That occasionally brings comfort to me, even when I couldn't even begin to guess what that gift is. Nonetheless, we all of us have the ability to find that gift - to reach for happiness in the midst of whatever sorrow we find ourselves in. We just have to remind ourselves of that ability once in awhile.

I can't say 'it will get better' because that isn't necessarily true. It will get different. Good things will happen, and even worse things will replace the thing that was previously the worst thing that ever happened. Somewhere in there, though, are the perfect moments. They don't last long, but they are there. The few minutes when you're laughing yourself sick over something a friend said, or you're outside and it's a beautiful day, or you get just for a second, that you're alive, really alive, and that there's always hope. We need to live for the perfect moments. Remembering they are there helps when your in the middle of the not so perfect moments.

So I'm watching Oprah

because that's the kind of day I'm having, and the show is about pathological liars. I missed the very beginning, but apparently a couple of months ago Oprah had some woman on who lied about a bunch of stuff, including her baby having cancer, and now she's in jail for 120 days for credit card fraud. Now there is a woman who called into a radio station, saying she was joining the army and that her husband was in Iraq, and later said he was killed, and that was all a lie.

So, weird, huh? It's like the girl I mentioned before about lying on the internet. Strange when people can't seperate real from fantasy. And it's really odd, because both these people seem to be looking for attention more than trying to get money or anything.

People are strange.

So I'm watching Oprah

because that's the kind of day I'm having, and the show is about pathological liars. I missed the very beginning, but apparently a couple of months ago Oprah had some woman on who lied about a bunch of stuff, including her baby having cancer, and now she's in jail for 120 days for credit card fraud. Now there is a woman who called into a radio station, saying she was joining the army and that her husband was in Iraq, and later said he was killed, and that was all a lie.

So, weird, huh? It's like the girl I mentioned before about lying on the internet. Strange when people can't seperate real from fantasy. And it's really odd, because both these people seem to be looking for attention more than trying to get money or anything.

People are strange.