Well, apparently I suck

[charliesmum]

I didn't get a part in the play.

Francie, the lady who had to give me the news, said they might want me to be 'Valentine' or 'The Priest' but I'm sorry, I'm not up for losing graciously at this point, so I said I don't think so. I'm selfish. If I can't be a decent part, then it will be too painful for me to be there at all.

I always thought I could do Shakespeare.I suck at so many other things in my life, I'm not good at anything really, but this I thought, if I just had the chance, I could do it, but apparently not. It was like the one hope I had left in the world, and now that is gone.

I'm really, really depressed right now.

Comments

[femaelstrom27.livejournal.com]

Oh, and sort of in reply to some other people -- I think you should go for the smaller part, if you could get the courage. I got put in the chorus for a play in 8th grade and refused to do the show, and I regretted it for the entire duration of the play because all my friends ever effing talked about was rehearsal, rehearsal, rehearsal! and I felt like I was missing out. Then in Secret Garden I was The World's Most Unimportant Ghost Ever and it completely sucked, but I was still able to enjoy doing it, which surprised me. Point is, I think you'll surprise yourself and have more fun than you think with the play. Plus, like some other people said, you can prove to the directors that you are really good and really dependable and not only will they consider you for a part in the next production, but you'll also get major brownie points with them and they may give you unassigned lines, things to distinguish yourself. Just show that you are really passionate about this and really throw your heart into the show (or at least pretend to), and they will be so impressed. I got some sort of Theater Spirit award at school this year "for always wanting to perform onstage in any capacity" -- that is, doing a show even if my part was totally worthless and dispensable! I've gone on long enough, I imagine. Take care.